Contentment

I’ve been thinking a lot about our culture and the “what’s next?” in life. With each new chapter I life, whether it be marriage, becoming parents, or this latest change with our move to camp, people tend to ask about what’s next after this.

Those who know me (Megan) well, know that I have been a person to jump headfirst into the next big thing in life but since having Kendall this has changed drastically. I desire for her to grow up in a place that has a slower pace, where she gets to use her God-given gifts. A place she can safely play outside without the constant worry of “stranger danger”. I want for her to get dirty as she learns, pretends and plays. I want stability and contentment for our family.

Don’t get me wrong, I genuinely love that people have a curiosity to follow what God is doing in and through our family and I hope that continues. Please, continue to ask questions, to follow along but for now God is teaching me a lot about contentment, being present and grounded in the task laid before me. We don’t have a plan for anything career wise after PRC. I know when I have made plans for myself, God has something much more grand in store. We can plan ourselves silly but really, how much control do we have over it all?

Today I found myself frustrated and anxious to even consider anything after life here at camp, more children, our next home, etc.. what I’ve learned about myself is that the places where anxiety creeps in are the places I haven’t surrendered to God’s will, I don’t have complete faith in the situation. Thinking about “what’s next” has made me anxious because I haven’t handed over our current situation over to Him.

Romans 12:2 “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”

Our family is working on fundraising support before we start working here at Prairie River Camp and it’s been a huge lesson in faith and trust to allow myself to surrender it all to God. Right now we have no income, it was a huge leap of faith for us and we felt, and still feel it’s the right move for our family to focus on fundraising (and my healing from TBI) before starting this fall. I’m practicing big faith that we will have the financial support raised to get paid by then!

Making big shifts in your thought process, the way society has taught you to think, takes devotion, practice and patience. Our world is all about “the grind” and we are working very hard to change that for our family. We have grown closer to God and to each other in this process. For now, our eyes are fixed on this setting, this calling, our ministry and our family.

-Megan